An otherwise ordinary day...

He arrived! It is well over a month ago now (in fact nearly two) only I haven't had a minute to post until now. And he was a he, which I didn't know beforehand but now it seems impossible to imagine he could ever have been anything else. He picked an otherwise ordinary day to be born, the 16th of May 2006, but to me this will always be - in that tragically soap opera sounding way - the most incredible day of my life. I can't help it, it's true. Your mum was right (damn it) the birth of a child is the most memorable day and that child, once it arrives, really is the most important thing in your world.

This child we have called Tobias, he's known as Toby, but we thought he might like a more grown up name at some stage later. I hope he likes his name. Choosing it for him was difficult, among the first of so very many decisions we will have to make, and have already made on his behalf, just hoping we've made the right one.

So now I am one of those Mummy things, and life will never be the same again. It's funny, I thought I was all cool with this and past the first month hormonal stuff, but as I sit here writing this I have tears pouring down my cheeks. I guess I don't get much time to actually think about him, his birth and his first month, as I am mostly so busy caring for him. But when I do stop and think about it I am still totally overwhelmed. How on earth did I make another person?! It astonishes me that the whole process actually works and out of two cells comes a whole new person, totally perfect with so much potential. Now we just have to learn how to bring out all that potential and not totally screw the little man up too much with all our good intentions. I just hope we do right by him.

Toby if you ever read this... I'll do my absolute best.


On day one - he seemed pleased to be here!